I practice because I tend to forget

During my online coaching sessions I often take notes on the experiences of my clients.

One of them told me last week “I tend to forget” when speaking of a practice experience he had.

A great reason to practice.

I told him I also forget and in practice it seems that I can remember something.

This remembering is not some kind of knowledge that I have learnt. It’s rather a taste through a sensation of joy of life in me.

Afterwards I feel a bit lighter, there’s more space in my torso and I feel like all of those pushing, pulling, throwing and grabbing motions in the air allow me to swim past mental constructions I have built over the years.

One of my teachers, Nir Adin, who shared some of his physical language you see below, told me once that practice is like his celebration of life.

I tend to forget so I return often to those conditions in which I sense myself more fully beyond any tension I feel today in my left neck, chaos work with kids, topic of conversation I was just in, memories of past situations, judgements I had on myself and others, food I was not digesting well, thought of my father dealing with Parkinsons, e-mails I just replied to, e-mails I don’t feel like replying to, pressure I felt to perform, pressure I felt to conform, wifi that worked too slow, thinking I’m underachieving, comparing with other people’s talents, incapability I felt to try to express myself clearly, angry tweets I read, missing out on Bitcoin price increase, disconnection I felt from a close friend, past regrets I thought I had let go of, beyond any image I saw on Instagram, emotion of someone else that has been living in my belly, beyond the next thing I think I have to do.

Hunter S. Thompson said something to his wife once, that if he knew he could just get home to his ranch in the valley from one of his crazy trips, he knew he would be safe.

Kind of like that but without going anywhere and not knowing what it will be today.

After… a deep exhale, smile, diamonds in the sky and birds chirping volume up a notch.